Over the past two weeks, I have had several significant impressions that I need to shift my course and focus.
One of these impressions came while I was carrying an adorable 22 lb. squishy baby body around the house (that squishy baby body is named Gideon by the way). I distinctly felt, no matter what other roles I play in my life, the role of mother is the most important role I have.
It sounds so simple. And almost like “well duh Emily. All mom’s have heard the saying that “being a mother is their most important role.” But I think that’s the thing…
If we’re not aware of where we desire to make our greatest impact, we won’t.
You can’t hit a target when you don’t know what the target is, and I feel like I’ve lost sight of my target over the past few years.
Honestly, I haven’t felt I’m doing the role of “mother” justice for quite some time.
I “bring work home” with me on an almost daily basis. Some weeks I am just so incredibly tired that I can’t bring myself to do anything besides “relax” on the weekend, when many times my children would love to be involved in some sort of family activity…but I’m just too stressed or tired to pull it together.
For the past few years, I have been giving the majority of my energy away to the environment outside the walls of my home and have found I struggle to summon the energy for my children.
I don’t want my children to grow up and feel like they had a mother who was always too busy to play UNO with them.
Or a mother who was always at a board meeting.
Or a mother who was always stressed about something out of her control.
I have lost my way as a mother because I have been caught up in the thick of thin things.
I have momentarily forgotten where my greatest treasures lie.
My attention has been pulled in so many directions, my children have been getting what is left over.
And today I connected all the dots and realized: the impressions and gentle reminders I have been receiving the past few days are encouraging me to focus on the growth I am meant to have from my role as a mother.
Today I was listening to the Oprah SuperSoul Sessions Podcast with Dr. Shefali Tsabary. Dr. Shefali says that a child is brought to us to further our growth and development.
The journey of raising a child has been undertaken to raise the parent, not the other way around.
To show us where we have yet to grow.
This is why we “call our children” into our lives.
What an amazing thought.
I have always thought it is my “duty” to raise my children, yet there is a different way to view this.
The children that have come into my life, the children I have brought into this world, are here to teach me. They are here to assist in my growth. They are here because they are the only ones who can teach me what I am meant to learn.
I am meant to raise them, but they are also meant to raise me.
There is a difference in BEING a mother and DOING as a mother.
I have been caught up in the DOING.
I wash clothes, I make meals, I discipline, I drive to appointments, I teach manners, I am constantly serving and not always with the happiest of dispositions…
But the BEING is where it’s at.
I will be digging into this a whole lot more. I’m going into research mode, one of my favorite things to do! I honestly can’t even write further on it because I have so much more to learn.
All I know is this: I want to be present with my children, I want to learn with my children, I want to create experiences and lasting memories with my children. This is my greatest role, everything else is second to it.